| And it starts
Sometime around midnight
Or at least that's when you lose yourself
For a minute or two
As you stand
Under the bar lights
And the band plays some song about forgetting yourself for a while
And the piano's this melancholy soundtrack to her smile
And that white dress she's wearing, you haven't seen her
For a while
But you know
That she's watching
She's laughing, she's turning
She's holding her tonic like a cross
The room suddenly spinning, she walks up and asks how you are
So you can smell her perfume
You can see her lying naked in your arms
And so there's a change
In your emotions
And all of these memories come rushing like feral waves to your mind
Of the curl of your bodies, like two perfect circles entwined
And you feel hopeless, and homeless, and lost in the haze of the wine
And she leaves
With someone you don't know
But she makes sure you saw her, she looks right at you and bolts
As she walks out the door
Your blood boiling, your stomach in ropes
And then your friends say "What is it? You look like you've seen a ghost."
And you walk
Under the streetlights
And you're too drunk to notice that everyone's staring at you
You don't care what you look like
The world is falling around you
You just have to see her
You just have to see her
You just have to see her
You just have to see her
You just have to see her
You know that she'll break you in two |
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| we kissed.
it felt good for a while.
then reality starting sinking in.
it's always the morning after that i realize i did something wrong. why is it that no matter what, i fuck things up? why do we always end up being the people we spend our whole lives trying not to be? sometimes i feel so damaged and stupid that i feel like i have to damage someone else too. i want them to feel as low as me. i want them to feel the rush of ecstasy in their systems, the smell of cannabis and alcohol on their skin. i want them to be impure and tainted. there is no going back from that. i'm on the highway to hell and for me, no, there is no going back.
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| keeping secrets safe
every move we make
seems like no one's letting go
and it's such a shame
cause if you feel the same
how am i supposed to know
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its not your fault that i cant trust
its in my past, its in my path and i can't go there
making a mess out of this game
to see it all go up in flames
so tired of being ruthless and reckless
time to be your only one
to almost be you're way too young
time to crash into the sun
time to be your 21
time to dream that love will last
time to drive my car too fast
time to walk before i run
time to be
time to be your 21
i don't believe in love and i
i pull it to the wall
i tasted sweetness there to laugh so hard as it falls
and i could push you there if you don't stop me
push you there if you don't stop me
please stop me
time to be your only one
to almost be you're way too young
time to crash into the sun
time to be your 21
time to dream that love will last
time to drive my car too fast
time to walk before i run
time to be
time to be your 21
its gut wrenching sometimes
its life threatening sometimes
seems like nothing can wash it all away
time to be your only one
to almost be you're way too young
time to crash into the sun
time to be your 21
time to dream that love will last
time to drive my car too fast
time to walk before i run
time to be your 21
time to be your 21
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